carlos carlos carlos...

1st post........ my flower

im not really a guy who is altered or actually gets pissed about shit, but i try to call you after i was actually talking to you.....

i called once, nothing happened,
i called again, i hear your voice then a hang up.
i called again i get your msg again.

i actually left a msg, i dont even remember
i dont want to
i was thinking too much
for no reason
or too many reasons
but hey,
i'm just thinking a lot for a bit

(but then i stop)
and i think.......
why mess up something that i hasn't even started yet
just trying to be complicated
for no reason,
being kinda hypocrit
trying to avoid
what i've just been...

i stop..........
i think........
i breathe...
and then open my eyes,
look directly into the dark spot,
trying to find a weird figure
of my choise of imagination.

i'm confused,
but i know and understand what's happening
so i feel lonely,
another day, and another time...

(Sweet Flower, i really really really like u....)
so, see you next time....
i hope...
:-/